[ he'd left as soon as they'd announced mary's corruptions, visions of the history revisionists with their corrupted swords in his mind as he fled to tend to tsurumaru. did something similar happen to mary? is that what it was?
and why does he care, when he'd only met the girl a few times? she'd broken tsuru. shouldn't he be happy that they'd found out who did it?
he's not though, and instead of trying to figure out why, exactly, that is, he focuses intently on cleaning the shards left behind. he's scrubbing at one when he hears the voice from the tablet. his hand slows, giving away that he's heard, but he doesn't look up or respond.
[ him talking to mary is part of how they'd confirmed it was her. that means that whatever it takes for her to be "purified" is also his fault, and lune's explanations, however vague, didn't sound good. the last thing ookurikara wants is to face her again, with that ahead of her.
so he just shakes his head. no, again.
but he owes shess more than that, doesn't he? ]
...Thank you - for watching Tsuru while I talked to her.
[ he'll just. go back to cleaning. there's paint left on the edge here that doesn't seem to want to come off. ]
No one else knows what our swords mean to us.
[ it wouldn't be the same if he'd asked someone who didn't know, and not everyone would protect them if they did know. it's a big deal, shess, accept his thanks already. ]
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Ookurikara.
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and why does he care, when he'd only met the girl a few times? she'd broken tsuru. shouldn't he be happy that they'd found out who did it?
he's not though, and instead of trying to figure out why, exactly, that is, he focuses intently on cleaning the shards left behind. he's scrubbing at one when he hears the voice from the tablet. his hand slows, giving away that he's heard, but he doesn't look up or respond.
it's been a long day. ]
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You really didn't want it to be her, did you?
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No.
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It was rather cruel of them, to kill someone and then rob others' of closure.
Do you intend on speaking with her at all tonight?
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so he just shakes his head. no, again.
but he owes shess more than that, doesn't he? ]
...Thank you - for watching Tsuru while I talked to her.
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Why wouldn't I?
[ aside from the fact that he maybe gives out a handful of thank yous in a year - this favor means everything to him. shess has earned his thanks. ]
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No one else knows what our swords mean to us.
[ it wouldn't be the same if he'd asked someone who didn't know, and not everyone would protect them if they did know. it's a big deal, shess, accept his thanks already. ]
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I suppose not. Has anybody asked about that?
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[he pauses for a while.]
Do you feel alone?
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[ his voice is softer than when he usually says it, though, like he has to convince himself of this. most of the time he believes it, but today...
well. none of his friends have broken before. ]
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Because I can't protect everyone.
[ so, yeah, he doesn't want to get hurt again because he wasn't strong enough. ]
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Is that what you consider your duty?
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My duty as a sword warrior is to protect history, but we can't do that if we break. We have to protect each other first.
I was captain. It was my duty to make sure both of us got home safely.
[ and ookurikara just failed that one, key part of his mission. ]
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A leader's burden is a heavy one to carry. Do you regret taking it on?
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[ just failing tsuru. ]
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Warriors fall on the battlefield all the time. If we let that stop us, we'd never accomplish what we came to do.
[ compartmentalization is the only way to keep going, basically. ]
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[the sura way of life is pretty much the same.]
And what do you intend to do from here?
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[ that's it, that's the plan. whatever it takes, he and tsuru need to get back, and then he can figure out where to go from there. ]
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