[ Sometimes, a minute is a very very long time, and there comes to a point where the only thing that can keep him going is by... not going. By sleeping and hoping he doesn't wake up but he always does anyways, and Minato gives Shess a small shrug. ]
What keeps you going? You've lived for so long... How do you not get tired of it?
Well, my life used to be more tumultuous, and I had to work hard to survive, so things are actually easier for me nowadays, to be honest. I suppose that helps... After all, if I was going to give up, I might as well have done so long ago.
And, perhaps, it's because life is difficult that I wait for the moments that make it fulfilling. Unlike humans, who can yearn for an end they know is coming one way or another, I have all the time in the world.
[ Maybe it's that, that Shess can have centuries to wait things out, whereas Minato lived all of six years before wanting to give up, and has been dragging his feet for the last ten. ]
You're probably one of the only people here who isn't scared... I'm not either, but for the wrong reasons, probably. I don't have all the time in the world. I have less time than others. So doing things to make the moment fulfilling... that's probably wrong too?
[ Death seeker, risk taker, yolo, whatever you want to call it. The reason why Four and Emma and Lili and all those people are always so mad at him. ]
[admittedly, shess doubts his life is going to get better in the long run, but he doesn't say that.]
I think that if you're still trying to find joy in certain things, that means you haven't completely given up yet. A part of you is still trying. That, at least, is a good thing.
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What keeps you going? You've lived for so long... How do you not get tired of it?
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Well, my life used to be more tumultuous, and I had to work hard to survive, so things are actually easier for me nowadays, to be honest. I suppose that helps... After all, if I was going to give up, I might as well have done so long ago.
And, perhaps, it's because life is difficult that I wait for the moments that make it fulfilling. Unlike humans, who can yearn for an end they know is coming one way or another, I have all the time in the world.
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You're probably one of the only people here who isn't scared... I'm not either, but for the wrong reasons, probably. I don't have all the time in the world. I have less time than others. So doing things to make the moment fulfilling... that's probably wrong too?
[ Death seeker, risk taker, yolo, whatever you want to call it. The reason why Four and Emma and Lili and all those people are always so mad at him. ]
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I think that if you're still trying to find joy in certain things, that means you haven't completely given up yet. A part of you is still trying. That, at least, is a good thing.
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[ He digs into his bag for something and holds out his fist. ]
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he holds out his hand, though not without mild concern because it's minato.]
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Are you able to eat this?
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he nods.]
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I don't know if I said anything useful, but you're welcome.
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Doesn't matter if it's useful or not. I just like hearing people talk about themselves.
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also great, don't expect shess to do it again.]
Other people are the most interesting part of life.
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I think so too. As a whole, they're kinda weird... but I really like the people here.
[ Like Hisoka. Also Shess? ]
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They're a colourful sort.
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Is that the nicest term you could think of?
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he chuckles, voicelessly.]
No. They're very kind as well, and they try hard.
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[ He has to put himself out of that group, but yeah. Everybody else has been great. ]
It's been nice watching them. Existing but not existing. Sol, too, has been fun. I kind of don't want it to end.
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I think it'll end, one way or another. Not necessarily in a way we'll like, though.
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You mean when there's nobody else left but the Corruption... and whoever it's inhabiting? Do you think that's the way to win?
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It's not how I'd want to win, if that's what you're asking.
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