lili.

[nonbelligerent]

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week 0, saturday.

[nonbelligerent]

[well, that trial was something.

sometime after, shess decides he should find lili. he figures she might be in the armoury, so that's where he'll be looking for her.]

[coastal]

[that's correct!

though it would appear that she hasn't quite gotten started yet. she's spacing out, looking at the wall of weapons, her hands pressed against her cheeks.

she won't notice when shess enters, sorry]

[nonbelligerent]

[...]

Lili.

[coastal]

[oh -

that gets her to jump a little bit, hands pulling away from her face and automatically rubbing at her eyes when she hears her name]

—sorry.

Did you need something?

[nonbelligerent]

[he pauses.]

I assume that if it becomes necessary, you will be assigning Axel and Hisoka as each other's partners.

[coastal]

[she nods....]

I'm going to tell Axel later. He ought to know.

[nonbelligerent]

That aside, how are you feeling?

[coastal]

Angry.

[ . . . and frustrated, and sad, and fearful - but she doesn't give a name to those feelings]

If something happens to me, will you make sure Kaoru gets taken care of?

I voted for Lune, so I'll accept whatever comes my way - but he doesn't deserve to get caught up in my rash choices. I'm sure he voted for who he should've.

[nonbelligerent]

[ofc dana voted for her own npc]

If a punishment awaits, I won't be in any more of a position to look after him.

[coastal]

[technically speaking, she's never talked to lune and never will so]

- you?

Did you vote for yourself? Shess, I told you...!

[BE MORE CAREFUL WITH HIMSELF, GOD]

[nonbelligerent]

[HE HOLDS UP A HAND TO PACIFY HER before it goes back to his tablet.]

I did not write a name, but a qualifier. If it had succeeded, it would've gone to Mary regardless, so it was nothing so noble.

[coastal]

[ . . . ugh.

she seems to settle at that - even if there's a different flash of anger in her eyes]

.... and you still might get punished for it?

[nonbelligerent]

Technically, I failed to write a name, so probably.

[coastal]

... I hate this place.

[and her hands clench into fists at that]

I hate their stupid rules that they don't share until they're uncovered the most difficult way. I hate how they punish good people. I hate having to just sit here and watch it happen...!!

[nonbelligerent]

It is frustrating.

Is that why you voted for Lune?

[coastal]

.... I thought to vote for Sol.

[but then he called himself a monster and even lili couldn't do that]

Maybe it doesn't matter, because I didn't tell anyone. It wouldn't have been in the majority anyway.

But to vote for someone who was used... who might've only done what she did because she was brought here, who only suffered because of this situation - I couldn't accept that either.

[lili's morality is why she'll die early]

[nonbelligerent]

[...]

You truly are kind, Lili.

[coastal]

That's not true.

[she doesn't even say that as a tsun thing this time, but as a genuine refutation]

And more than that, it doesn't matter how kind I am when I can't do anything.

[nonbelligerent]

And that's why many people choose to forsake their empathy instead.

But I get the feeling you don't intend to give up.

[coastal]

... I can't. I won't allow this place to break me.

[unfortunate.

but also.]

... but I can't do the same next week. It's a small act of rebellion and... if I'm removed from the game, it puts Kaoru at risk.

[nonbelligerent]

Perhaps that is the real reason we are tied to one another.

[coastal]

... I'd tie him to someone else if I could.

[if it'd keep him safe but.

she can't.]

[nonbelligerent]

Even if you could, it would only encourage others to do the same.

[coastal]

[ . . . ]

So what am I supposed to do?

Wait? Frustrated?

[nonbelligerent]

What do you feel like you should be doing?